Testimony
(I)
Testimony
(II)
Testimony
(III)
Testimony
(IV)
Testimony
(V)
Testimony
(I)
it often begins with a warning:
The information in these papers should not
be accepted
in and of itself. You must seek out
confirmation
for yourself. The credibility of these
papers
does not depend on its author, but rather
on what
you discover from your study and investi-
gation
of the material presented.
CONFIRM
EVERYTHING FOR YOURSELF
this is
about the role of testimony
the claims
of truth in the age of cover-up and misinformation
Testimony
(II)
people
claim to have been abducted
claim to
have been undressed and examined
poked and
prodded
claim that
there are complex reproductive enterprises involving conception and
gesta-
tion or incubation of mixed beings
claim they
are caught up in these procedures
captured
against their will
they claim
mechanisms of ingestion and expulsion are examined over and over
claim endless
rounds of gynecological, rectal, and urological procedures
and authorities
report, a physiological exploitation accompanies these claims
or reason
that because of the emphasis on reproduction women seem to have a larger
number of complex experiences
or calculate
that as many as one in ten Americans have implants as a result of these
abductions
while others
claim that electromagnetic symbols are used to control or trace people
with implants
in the narrative
she finds herself floating up and out of bed
through the window or screen or wall
she finds
herself drawn towards the light and enveloped by it
she finds herself floating towards the light
in a preliminary
investigation
they take
a sharp instrument and scrape it down her soles, causing her feet to
curl
in
reflex
they touch
her ankles and twist her foot from side to side
they push
and press against her calf muscles
they squeeze
hard and painfully between the bone and calf muscle
they look
closely at her knee and bend her leg a few times
but this
is just the beginning and what follows this prodding remains difficult
twisted
in its possible truth
mutilated
claims
fetuses
or the organs of elimination are missing
a woman
who is carrying twins, for instance, might have one removed so only a
single
twin remains
or a fetus
removed from a body by a sucking machine
or the
rectal area perfectly cored out of a body found on the side of the road
or puncture
wounds due to needles and probes on the head, the fingers, the leg
at other
times instead of removal insertion, multiplication
one half
being, one half human children
other reports
vary
are disputed
by the community of believers
a humanoid
might have been housed at Los Alamos until its death in the early 1950s
a speech
device which enabled the speaking of English might have been implanted
in
a throat
this being
might have been named ebe
a man devises
a paranoid interpretation of what he thought he was seeing and bearing
and begins to build a pyramid from his sources
his sources
emphasize
a visiting
being farms another being for organs, cats a being's flesh
photographs
of sightings from afar often appear in grainy detail
the UFO
matter might have literally brought about the establishment of direct
communication between the East and West in 1962
whispers
resonate-the church might refuse to take a stand because it would have
to
imagine
God having a relationship with someone other than ourselves
in the midst
of myth or belief
claims
of an archetypal contact through symbology that begins fifty to one
hundred
years ago
the stories
gain fluency, even as they present questions
there might
be a book called the Bible which contains all these reports
the scrolls
might be at the CIA headquarters in Langley, Virginia
but even
the beings themselves deflect the subject's questions with palliatives
and do
not give
substantive answers
in answer
to the relentless question of "why?"
often they
communicate only, "you know what you are doing"
or "you
are very special to us"
or "this
is very important and you are helping us"
at other
times they give visualizations of planetary destruction and say "we
will
help
you prevent this"
attempts
at comfort from, those without the vocabulary of comfort
Testimony
(III)
testimony:
"this is
a daily dose of pain"
"this is not a dream"
"I did not choose to join"
"I do not
know why I keep waking"
"I think I'm floating out a closed window"
"I wake
up invaded"
"He puts something inside»
"I'm under something,
it is a man"
"and I'm saying ‘this has to stop’ over and over"
"They're
pressing and there's snipping."
"It is just like Auschwitz, just like Auschwitz"
"I have recurring nuclear war dreams."
"Who analyzes like that? It's just something new."
"It is long
and points. It is like a needle. It pinches."
"They have an agenda to carry out and once it begins nothing can stop
it"
"It can go on for years"
"I feel
like this is psychological torture although I am not afraid for my life"
"Like possession in a way"
testimony:
"I can't
say this happened to me and expect to be treated in the same way again"
"You have
to go where the evidence leads you, even though you may not like going
there"
"You can't
say this happened to me and expect to be treated the same again"
"It forever
changed the way I think about things"
"And I keep
saying ‘this has to stop,’ ‘this has to stop’ and then suddenly I feel
like
all will be well"
"You go
to where the UFO stories are"
testimony:
"they close
our eye"
"our voices
are made silent"
"our ears
are made deaf"
"we will
never be the same again"
testimony:
"you will
never be the same again"
"the alienness
that you feel on your world is a reflection of the alienness you feel
between each other"
"not alien
but external
the boundaries
of the world simply expanded"
testimony:
"nature
abhors a vacuum
where a
lack of openness
and a penchant
for secrecy persists
rumor and
rumors of rumor are sure to flourish
even in
the middle of the desert
you keep
shaking the secrecy tree
hopefully
something drops out"
Testimony
(IV)
further
complicating the flow of information: some documents are impossible to
get
others
disintegrate with five seconds exposure to air
these might
tell of agreements between the U.S. government and beings,
perhaps
granting beings permission to conduct animal mutilation
at other
times, a man claims to be a source of false information
he might
be sent by the government
another
states "how do you know that I'm not here to cither give you misinforma-
tion or to give you information which is part of the programming,
knowing
you
are going to go out and spread it around?"
questions
of truth are turned around, back to the sleuth in a beat up car who has
given up his/her job to search for authenticity because this story is
so
big it will
change the century
trust no
one becomes an advertising slogan for the 90s
as the information
here is suspect
a fraud
will be enacted to prove other data is fraudulent
these fraudulent
practices prove the truth of other data to some minds
(the fraud
being evidence of the need to cover the truth)
others
only remember the fraud
this creates
a nightmare of violence and irrationality
at the end
of every narrative are the "official response" and the "critics corner"
or a series
of questions for you the reader to answer:
why does
s/he claim it was foggy when the weather bureau reported sun?
why are
victims of sexual abuse more likely to be abducted than the general
population?
why do
the most convincing, most tantalizing sightings always have only one
person
to authenticate them?
Testimony
(V)
my
point here is not the laugh
nor the
truth
nor to
merely explore truths turns, information's conspiracies
it is:
what do
we do?
trust no
one?
trust no
I?
as we try
to look with eyes better then what we've had before
what does
it mean to believe oneself as attractive to an alien race?
a life defined
by questions
was I abducted?
did I experience
that or just remember it?
never to be answering
stuttering one's way through the
unreliability
of
hypnosis
claim for
us it is not the proof but the telling
spots on
film,
charred
grass,
pieces
of metal
all begin
to mean in new ways
as there
is the possibility that beings might have hired a PR firm which created
My
Favorite Martian, ALF, Star Trek, Star Wars, AlienNation, ET, and other
shows post the 1950s
all media
become evidence or proof
or part
of the conspiracy to expose beings
we will
become used to visiting beings, welcome them on the basis of this enter-
tainment exposure
so the boy
running off into the field, clouds rolling over head, is called
calling
out to us
so the call
to phone home
so the
force
so the
FBI is covering up
so the
aliens are the minority
entertainment
takes a larger purpose
one ominous
or liberating
the breadth
of the debate
as we rethink
our selves, the political enters
and the
issue twists to become about our ability to touch information
to make
our own decisions
which has
been required of us all along, we've just slacked off
letting
the advertisement speak a larger truth
letting
others do our thinking and condense it back to us as a series of
dialectical
issues
our lives
were busy, we defend our laziness
filled
with the everyday, never out of the ordinary
so what
interests in this formula are the questions without answers
which lie
to believe
becomes
the question
is it the
liar or the truth-teller encountered at the crossroads, pointing the
direction
the direction
amphibious
more than
identity our attraction is to puzzle
the lineage
of close encounters
anecdotal
data, exhaust residue, radiation levels five times the norm
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